I walk in side by side with my mom. I try to stay calm but seeing all the people and hearing all the noise scares me.
My mom tells a nurse I'm autistic and asks if I'm going to have to be out here with all the people and noise. She gives some answer I know means yes but my mom takes as a no.
They take me back for questioning but i can go with my mom. I think about demanding she stay with me but another nurse asks for a safety check. They direct me alone to a room. There are two nurses. I know this can't be good. They tell me to strip to my underwear. Great. I do them they tell me to take it off and then to lift my breasts and spin around. Great.
I'm a nudist but the demand freaks me out.
I tell my mom immediately. I've been breaking down off and on again since we came in.
They take away my soda and my clothes and I'm dressed only in two hospital robes and a pair of hospital pants and mesh panties.
I feel violated isolated and terrified. I cling to her. She offers to get me stuff but I demand she stay. Eventually they force her to go but she comes back with stuff.
No clothes. No books. Not even my contacts. She brought my large blanket my eevee and something else but I forget what.
I spend the whole night wanting to sleep. I found I can call her so it makes it livable. Some people talk to me so I talk to them. We eat a snack. But I'm waiting for my stuff and my meds. Once I take my meds I go to bed.
My roommate was yelling and having a scene earlier but she was actually nice. Everyone judged her wrong. I liked her.
But I wanted sleep.
I feel asleep fast partly from the sleeping drug. But about 2 am some guy comes in saying I go in the hall. I help move my bed and go back to sleep grumpy. I hoped I dreamed it but waking up to drugs and a prayer in the hall confirms I don't even very the privacy quiet and dark of a room.
I take my pills and sit around with nothing to do really.
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